HIKAYAT SI BENGKOK

It’s now already d 4^th anniversary of d great SUGUS REVOLUTION… what a strange name indeed to mark d fourth year of my REVIVAL.15^th December 2005 is an historic moment for me when all my system was forcefully switch to SLEEP mode and only turned back ON 4 days later. No I wasn’t the Government test subject like CHUCK BARTOWSKI who became a super spy when all of CIA, NSA n FBI information was downloaded into his head. But I am a GOD servant who was TESTED at that moment. While d test did not turn me, SUhaib code name GUS into a super strength human being but it does make me emotionally n spiritually STRONGER, TOUGHER than before.On that day i met with a tragic accident that changed my life. (Positively)

No i won’t tell u how the accident happened here (sometimes i get bored telling d same story over n over again tat sometimes i created another version of the story like a fight with AH LONG to save someone n etc)… But i will tell on how i got over my depression after the accident so it can b a TAULADAN n PENGAJARAN for all…mcm kisah pak pandir tu. And from d title some of u may already knew that i got my ideas from d song -Kristy r u doing okay- sung by The Offspring. Well, after being discharged from d hospital then only i realized in how bad condition i was. My right arm was severely damaged with multiple fractions n a dislocated elbow plus a large area of my skin on my right arm was torn off. I also suffered some minor head injuries (skull fraction on my right eyebrow n damage to my right eye’s retina). Luckily my brain was free from internal bleeding and my legs are well intact to my upper body.

The first 7 months after d accident was just like HELL. No it wasn’t the physical injuries that were killing me but it was the emotional injuries that were more painful for me to swallow. After the accident i was partially immobilized (i have to take 1 whole semester break from my studies). The first month after the accident i have to use a wheelchair to go anywhere further then 10 meters. This was because my body have turned weak after shutting off for 4 days. Then when i can finally walk long distance, it took me another 4 months to get me running again (jogging to b exact). Basically my life were limited to just in my house… and that was making me INSANE! Why? Even thought my house got all d necessary home entertainment equipments (my dad even installed ASTRO so I won’t get bored staying at home) but i greatly miss d hyperactive campus life i was enjoying just before the accident. Several hours before i trashed my car, i was in another state conducting a student-foster family program. A few days earlier i was climbing mount Ledang in Johor. And a few months back i was touring Kota Kinabalu and successfully conquered M. Kinabalu! So the lay back stuck at home life sure wasn’t making me happy. It actually made me feel more stressed thinking about all my friends back there in UKM n what i would be doing if the accident have never happened. It reached a point that i even considered that ill be better to be dead than staying alive n be a burden to my family n friends.

And thank God that never happened….thank God for giving me another chance, to redeem myself…to show d world what’s my worth. Well it may took me a lengthy 7 months to get over the sinking feeling but somehow i finally accept my fate n move on. And that was achievable with d help from God, family n good friends… n of course a positive mindset. From the beginning of my new life i keep telling myself that i will bounce back n heal from my injuries like nothing had ever happened. Well that didn’t materialize when my orthopaedic surgeon told me that my injuries will only heal to a certain degree n i will be HANDICAPPED for life! That come as shock to me at first, but i realized physically PERFECT or not i am i still have to carry on with my life. So i set new targets in my NEW LIFE, set new challenges, think from a different view n try to solve problems from ways i never think possible before. I have accepted things the way it is, n how to manage it. Basically the accident opened my mind, my heart n my soul. One of my philosophies is to turn my disadvantage to my advantage. And only with this mindset i was able to change my tragic experience into a REJUVENATING experience.

At the same time i also have not given up the hope to be physically fit again. I put myself on my own physiotherapy, bending my arm as much as i could every day. My dad even took me to a traditional Chinese healer who tried to bend my arm back to normal position until i scream my lungs out. Ive even started playing basketball again n start my fitness regime to gain back my lost stamina. I done all that so i could show to my family, my friends n to the world that im still capable of doing strenuous physical activities even know i have become a handicapped person. It was worth all d hard work when i successfully climbed M. Ledang 10 months later. I was proud of my achievement, finally i proved to all who take pity on me that im still d same. But disaster struck on my way down d mountain. I slipped n felt on my right arm. The trauma made my right hand unusable for 3 days after that. Then it came to me that im a physically different person, while i may participate in physically challenge activity it come at a greater RISK now. And i have to calculate how much risk im willing to take.

I was better prepared the second time, n in 2008 i successfully climb to the top of M. Gading in Sarawak n safely climbed down. There are numerous other challenged ive wrestled down after the accident. Some of it is to finish my Degree in the same amount of semester just like the other normal students n keep my active student lifestyle. Indeed if the accident never happened i may not be courageous enough to voluntarily further my studies in a new place. So after a very long n detailed re enactment of my post tragic accident experience and how i got over it, now this is the part where i tell d moral of the story. So gather around kids n listen carefully (please don’t imagine me as Barney d Dinosaur). No matter what life have taken away from us, our capabilities, loved ones, materials possession and so on, while we may try to gain back what we lost (except for d dead n human parts) itll come to a level that it is better to leave things the way it should be n accept what have happened. and DONT WASTE YOUR WHOLE LIFE TRYING TO GET BACK WHAT WAS TAKEN AWAY. Sometimes the grass is greener on the other side of the fields, so it easier to just get on with our lives. Just like ROCKY BALBOA would have said ‘Life aint about how hard U CAN HIT. Its about how HARD U CAN TAKE A HIT n keep moving forward’

Baru2 ini timbul persoalan tentang nama yang aku gunakan dalam friendster  dikalangan pengunjung. Maka disini aku akan mengupas erti dan kisah disebalik nama2 yg sering / pernah aku gunakan. Jangan terkezut sememangnya aku ada banyak nama samaran/panggilan/manja/glamour dll =P

1. 1.Muhammad Suhaib

# Nama yang tertulis dalam IC aku. Nama ini diberikan oleh ibunda dan ayahanda tercinta berdasarkan nama salah seorang sahabat karib Rasulullah S.A.W. , Suhaib AR Rumi. Sahabat Rasulullah ini digambarkan memiliki ketampanan jejaka Rom dan namanya selalu di sebut ketika sambutan Maal Hijrah.Semoga aku mempunyai peribadi seperti tokoh ini yang sanggup berkorban segalanya demi Islam.

2. 2.Aib

# Nama manja yg digunakan oleh ahli keluarga terdekat SAHAJA.

3. 3.BonZeR

# Aku dapat gelaran ni masa form 1. Gara2 badan aku yg berisi ketika itu maka digambarkan seperti Bauncer yg selalu berjaga di pintu kelab malam dan tempat2 esklusif yg lain. Drpd gelaran ini jugalah aku gunakan utk alamat email aku BZR4.

4. 4.Bulat

# Sama jugak dapat mase junior high school. Tp aku x berape suka dengan gelaran ini sebab selalu digunakan untuk memperlekehkan aku yg agak BULAT. Hehe tapi mmg aku chubby pun mase tu.

5. 5.Gus

# Nickname yg senior kat asrama aku bagi dan diguna pakai mase kat SAMURA. Waktu tu dorang kate muke aku macam ahli politik indonesia Gus Dur. Haha walaupun aku x berape suke dikaitkan dgn Gus Dur yg kuat tido tu tapi aku guna balik name ni di Unimas, mungkin sbb nilai komersialnya tinggi kot.

6.Azura

# Nickname yg aku guna di alam maya. Mase tu tengah ketagih chatting kat MIRC. Walaupun aku hanya berumur 11 tahun tapi ramai yg ingin mengenali diriku sbb menyamar jadi gadis sekolah kui kui kui. Start gune name ni sbb mase tu minat kat classmate name Azura, tp orang name ni mmg selalu muncul dalam hidup aku…

7. 7.Firery_Castelo

# Nickname kat intenet jugak ni. Ketagih chatting balik mase cuti sekolah form 4. Kire name ni berjaya menarik perhatian ramai pengguna MIRC yg lain jugak la.

8. 8.Burning^Soul

# Nickname yg menggambarkan jiwa remaja yg sedang terbakar. Haha name yg aku guna dalam community circle99 (ntah ade lg ke x). Kadang2 gune jugak name ni utk chatting

9. 9.ScaR+FaCe

# Nama dalam frienster sebelum ini dan juga dlm beberapa komuniti sosial maya yg lain. Menggambarkan realiti muka aku selepas tragedi 15.12.2005. Berjaya menimbulkan perasaan gerun dikalangan pengunjung2 yg x mengenali diri ini yg sebenar huhuhu

1   10.Si Bengkok

# Nama yg aku pakai utk blog friensdter aku. Menceritakan kisah insan yg ingin hidup LURUS berlandaskan panduan yg diberikan namun kadang-kala terpesong akibat godaan dunia…. maka hasilnya bengkok, yakni cuba utk berjalan lurus tapi x berjaya lagi. Juga mengambarkan tangan kanan aku yg bengkok hehehe

1   11.JeBaT

# Nama lagenda dinasti Melaka ini aku gunakan dalam blog aku hjebat.blogspot.com yg mengupas isu2 panas tanah air. Aku gunekan namenya sbb kagum dengan prinsip perjuangan kebenaran yg ditonjolkan dan juga sebab aku sendiri suka melawan cakap org kecik2 dulu.

11 12.Si Penangkap RAMA2

# Nama ini muncul drpd post blog friester aku sebelum ini. Mengisahkan tentang aku tetapi menggunakan konsep penceritaan Metafora.Nak tau secara mendalam kena la baca post blog ni yg sebelum2nya. ;D

11 13.Zack

# Nama hutan aku mase bergiat aktif dalam UPSM dulu. Terbit apbl adik-beradik Batch 18 mula menggunakan nama lain semasa beraktiviti. Rasionalnya, dalam hutan dilarang panggil nama sebenar rakan2 kita, takut ada ‘benda’ ikut balik rumah… Waallahualam

14 14.SU

# Nama yg dikhaskan utk si Dia sahaja. Tapi ade jugak yg gatal2 panggil aku dengan name ni demi menjatuhkan imej aku sebagai jejaka gagah dan MACHO. Hehe antaranya macam lab assistant kak Sheela. Xpo2 nanti aku kenakan balik >: (

*Ini beberapa nama gelaran yg pernah, dan sedang aku gunakan. Mungkin ade lagi name2 panggilan lain yg kawan2 beri kat aku tp dah x ingat. Walau ape pun name yg kita guna yg penting jadilah diri kita sendiri dan x perlu berlakon sebagai orang lain. Semoga aku dapat menjadi seorang insan yg diredhai di DUNIA dan AKHIRAT, amin..

Something or someone triggers me to write about one distinct character of mine. The thing unfolded when a junior college of mine told me that life as a postgrad here looks pretty lonely. And when I asked her why is that, her spontaneous answer was to take me as an example. Of course that tick me off. So I ask her what’s d difference between me and her, an undergrad student. She told me that she got many friends here and their life r filled with their own activities. So my spontaneous explanation to her, I’ve that life before… Way more exciting then hers and as a proof I told her I’ve visited all d states in Malaysia during my 3 and a half years at UKM.

But I can’t totally disagree with her. To compare with my undergrad life before n as a postgrad now, it can be pretty quite n lonely sometime. Yup, my friends here sure are smaller in numbers if compared with d ones I’ve back in d peninsular. And my weekend now r filled with d visit to my research lab or spending time n money in d city. Whereas during my undergrad, almost every weekend me n my colleagues organized student activity which usually held outside our campus. So half an hour after our last conversation I texted her. ‘Partially true, my life here can be lonely sometimes, and that something I’ve to sacrifice to further my studies in this field. Even in d media, scientist r portrait as a loner. But I’ve choose this path, and there is a lot of differences between when u choose to do something n when you have to do something.’ D reply I got from her r quite shocking. She admitted that her life here has been lonely and she needed to change. It looks like she d one who’s in some emotion turbulence.

And to be honest, in my opinion we all been through that moment in life. A time when u felt like no one care, ur left to fend for urself and life is boring ; ( …. As for myself that moment came often especially at younger age, cause I’ve always been a LONE RANGER. I don’t have many friends during my early childhood, none of I still know now. And only a few of my primary school mates that I still kept in touch.I can’t recall any sweet memories from my junior high, and for my high school friends only a few of them whom I still kept their contact number. Maybe it’s because my family moved a lot then. But d main cause is I think is me myself. When I was a young boy, I have trouble mixing with d others, I tend to do things my way (and that sometimes lead me into trouble), I was a slow learner (I only master spelling n calculating when I was in standard two) and my emotions are unpredictable. Looks like pretty troublesome kid eh. But just recently I learn that there is some medical term for kids like me. It means children such as me r considered sick in some way (emotionally I think) and need special attention, care and sometimes medication. That term was not generally known in d psychotherapy field during my childhood days. So I grown up like the other normal kids, eventually I made it up until were I’m standing now… sometimes throwing tantrum along d way though hehehe.

It’s not I’m blaming anyone for the treatment I received during my childhood. I am very thankful to have very understanding parents n siblings. Whom manage to tolerate with all d fuss I throw at them. Teachers whom r very dedicated and never gave up on me. Friends who understand me and all whom helped me until I reached this height, THANK YOU ALL. So for me those sometimes lonely feeling which taunted us r just emotions that we human have. It just depends on how u handles it. For me, its a part of me .Sometimes I like to go my own way, even though the others are heading d opposite direction. But regularly i like to hang out with my friends, a lot of things r more interesting if done together-gether. Finally the phrases from d Whitesnake song – Here I go again concludes it all.

Cause I know what it means,

To walk on this lonely street of dreams,

Here I go again on my own,

Going down the only road I’ve ever known

Like a drifter I was born to walk alone,

I’ve made up my mind,

I aint wasting no more time….

PS: We were never alone actually, if we have faith in God. He is always there listening to our cries n pledge. Never d less I still miss my UPSM mates back home though…

Umur anda = 3 x 9 – 7 ÷ 5 x 9 + 12 ÷ 2

Anda berada di tengah2 KEREMAJAAN dan KEMATANGAN

Sudah 3 tahun anda melayakan diri untuk mengundi

Anda memiliki 2 buah kereta dan 4 orang isteri???

Anda mempunyai 2orang isteri dan 4 buah kereta???

Anda memiliki 2 buah handset dan lebih dari 4 pasang kasut! =P

Antara 24 cita2 anda adalah: memiliki cawangan restoran, bergelar doktor, menawan gunung Everest, berkahwin dan banyak lagi

2 + 2 = 4

2 x 2 = 4

2² = 4

Anda sudah hidup selama 24 tahun, berapa lama lagi masa anda yg tinggal…

This time                                                                                                                I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren’t enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I’ll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight
And damn it this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I spend forever with?

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can´t give up!
When you’re Lookin´ for a diamond in the rough
Because you never know when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.

Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There `s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.

I’ve keep humming this song for a while now. First time i heard it, the lyrics was so simple it felt like nickelback sang d song for me…. haha yeah in my dreams but i think this is one good song cause it resolve on certain part of our life….especially young people like me. We all hv mix feeling when it comes to intimate relationship…. there’s a time u felt so lonely wondering is there somebody for u somewhere out there. And what i like the most about this song is how it motivates u to keep on searching for d one we all dream of. As for myself have i found my only one? Hehe it’s too soon to tell but i hope i don’t have to travel further to find her, this is far enough laaa =P

Jika Kelantan terkenal dgn daerah Golok, Perlis dgn Padang Besar, dan Kedah dgn Air Itam. Sarawak pula terkenal dgn daerah Sarikin sebagai syurga barangan CIPLAK.Sehinggakan ada mengatakan bahawasanya percutian anda di bumi Kenyalang x lengkap jikalau x sampai ke kawasan pintu masuk Srwk-Kalimantan ni.Walaupun kurang mashyur berbanding Pasar Satok dan Waterfront di Kuching tetapi bg mereka yg GILA SHOPPING meskikan x menjejak kaki ke Sarikin.

Dan hanya selepas setahun berada di sini, barulah aku berpeluang melawat Sarikin (Nampak sgt ak bkn hantu shopping). Tu pun atas pelawaan rakan semaster aku, Mahziah yg jg x-coursemate aku di UKM dulu. Malah yg myebabkan ak lebih teruja adlh pelawaan beliau disebabkan supervisornya merangkap IDOLA aku Prof Ismail Ahmad mengundang kami utk menemaninya ke sana. Maka pd hr ahd yg lalu, seawal 6.30 pg kami dah memulakan perjalanan ke Sarikin. Aku agak pelik knp nak pg awl sgt, sedangkan perjalanan dr Unimas m’makan masa 1 suku jam je. Alasan yg diberikan oleh mereka2 yg dah sampai disitu bhw cuaca di Sarikin agak pelik, pkl 10pg dah panas terik mcm tgh hr.

Kt org sampai di pasar sarikin kire2 jam 8 pg. Lepas parking, prof dan kt org pengiringnya berpecah membawa haluan masing2. Berbeza dgn suasana di pasar siti khatijah dan padang besar, pasar sarikin benar2 mcm pasar. Hanya kedai kayu beratapkan zink di kiri dan kanan jalan… tiada struktur khas dibina bg menempatkan peniaga di sini. Namun keadaan masih selesa utk membeli-belah. Antr barang yg ada dijual disini dgn harga ‘istimewa’ adlh tikar buluh, telekung, baju- jersey-beg-topi-kasut-jam branded (CIPLAK la). Ade juga bbrp gerai jual brg2 pelik spt kolam air plastik (utk budak2 tu, tp kalo bpk bdk nak mandi pun blh), telur penyu, dan periuk belanga.Dan antr item2 ciplak yg mjd hak milik aku adlh: T-shirt, cap, telekung dan beg hp bersulam. X lupa jgk kerepek sukun n ubi… tp pelikkan ape kes aku beli telekung? Haha mestilah utk insan tersayang. Hasilnya duit dlm dompet aku tgl RM17 je. Hehe tp kire orait la sbb wlpn ak x keluarkan fulus dr mesin ATM tp ak masih dpt berbelanja utk aku sendiri, yg tersayang n member2.

Dalam pukul 10 pg kami org menamatkan ‘field trip’ kami sbb dah panas gilerrr… mmg btl la kenyataan member ak sblm btolak td. On d way balik prof singgah dulu di pasar basah utk beli bbrp jenis sayur-sayuran (tp periuk kera kire sayur jgk k???) Hehe sblm hantar ak n mahz blk prof belanja kita org makan dulu di batu 7. Kire jam 1230 kt org sampai di Unimas.

Maka penilaian field trip kali ini adalah bermanfaat. Kenapa? 1. Sbb aku hanya keluar duit utk beli2 brg je, lain semua di sponser. 2. Ak dpt pg melawat salah satu destinasi tkenal kat Swk ni (Skrg tgl Miri j ak blm sampai) dan 3. Ak dpt meluangkan masa bsama idola ku berduskusi dan membincangkan persoalan akademik dn isu-semasa)

A new dawn is awakening, in a few days another year will past us and the day n month will turn to 1 once more. For us Muslim a new year had already started a few hours ago. Luckily this year the Muslim calendar n the conventional calendar end almost at the same time.

Like every year a new year offer new hope n beginning for some of us. For those who have something to accomplish in life, they will set some goals n target to be full field (hopefully). As for myself setting goals at the beginning of a new year are just not enough. I would also look back at my last year resolution and analyze if it have been fully, nearly, of narrowly accomplished.

My 2008 resolutions and the year end results are:

#Continue my master study at any institution except UKM }Now im studying far away in UNIMAS, Swk so it’s quite an accomplishment

#Secure a scholarship }Thankfully but i have to suffer for 5 months before finally manage to do so

#Completing by lab work base on my Gantt schedule }It’s something kind of a miracle for a research postgrad to get it done especially here in Unimas, so NO this one i failed to accomplish

#Gain new knowledge, experience and friends } One of d main reason why i set my 1^st resolution, and this one i can confidently said is fully accomplished =D

#Change my bad habits } One thing about me is ill get fire up in the beginning n the fire start to fade away near d finish line… that’s one bad habit i need to change also

#Find a lover } There something in life, that its better be left in God’s hand…. i try my best n hopefully the result can only be known next year ;D

My 2009 resolutions are:

#Finish all my lab work so by 2010 ill only have to do my thesis writing

#Present my research proposal n results confidently at d department monthly seminar

#Go to a research symposium in d peninsular

#Go site seeing in Miri especially Mulu National Park

#Climb mount Santubong

#Lose weight-target 68 65kg!

#Lose my bad habits including d fire problem =P

PS: Its good to set goals for yourself, it’ll get u motivated n even though u failed to accomplish it at least u know what when wrong n u can try harder next time =D

Setelah hampir 4 thn bgelar penulis blog separuh masa kini tiba masanya aku mengorak langkah ke alam penulisan yg lebih berat dan serius. Ku rasakan segala pandangan dan idea mengenai isu semasa merangkumi agama, sosial dan khususnya POLITIK di Mlys tidak perlu ku pinggirkan lagi.

Mahupun begitu, segala cetusan itu tidak akan aku lampirkan dlm laman web friendster ini. Utk topik2 yg lebih komersial dan mengcakupi pembaca yg lebih besar, maka aku telah membina sebuah laman web baru b’gelar HANG JEBAT. Kenapa ia dinamakan sedemikian? Seharusnya anda melayari laman web t’sebut utk m’getahui jwpnnya.

Dan sabaiknya laman web FS ini akan kekal sebagai catitan diari kehidupanku seperti sbelum ini jua. Jika anda mahu mengenali sebahagian lagi diri ku ini yg lantang berhujah, geliga berfikir serta gigih mengkritik secara membina n meruntuh segeralah ke alamat yg telah tertera.

PS: Every journey began with a step… kemanakah langkah baru ini akan membawa diri ini? Waallahualam

Exactly three years have passed since the tragic 15^th December incident that changed me physically and mentally. It’s not like i can’t let go of the past and move on, but its good to reanalyze what have happened throughout my life and look how far have i come. Ok enough with all the philosophies, here is one unique way of retelling the story.

Once upon a time in a far faarrr away ‘kampung’ lived a young boy name ZACK. Zack was a hyperactive child who love to catch butterflies. He loved to catch them because he likes to look at the wonderful colours the butterflies have. In his collection, Zack has a wide array of different sizes and colourful butterflies which he caught using his looonngg and BIG butterfly net.

One day while on his way to school, Zack suddenly spotted a very large and unique butterfly which he have never seen before. He quickly ran home to get his butterfly net and his glass container where he kept all his butterflies. Soon after that he rushed back to the spot where he saw the butterfly, and luckily for him it was still there. Without hesitation Zack swing his butterfly net at the butterfly but before he can catch it the butterfly flew off. When he saw the butterfly try to run away, Zack quickly chased after it.

Suddenly, while chasing the butterfly Zack lose his footing and fell down. Due to the fall, Zack injured his knees. While his long and big butterfly net broke into two and his glass container shattered into pieces letting all his butterfly collection free. Seeing all his hard caught butterflies flew away in front of him made Zack very SAD…. For several days, Zack cried for his losses.

On the seventh day after the tragedy, while he was sleeping an old man came to him. The old man said to Zack “Young boy you should let go of the past, there is so much wonderful things out there waiting for you to discover. Life ain’t about how many butterflies you caught, its about how you appreciate its beauty and share it with the people you loved”. When Zack woke up he realize it was just a dream, and the dream had made him understood that life is unpredictable, but in the end what have happened to him was made to be.

Taking the tragedy positively Zack urge himself to get back doing the things he love so much, which is observing the beauty in butterflies. The incident have open his perspective in life and made him realize there are better ways to enjoy his passion for butterflies. Now every time he wants to look at butterflies he will go to a lake garden near his home. This way he can enjoy looking at the beautiful butterflies without disturbing them. He also can look at all the wonderful insects in the garden rather than just looking at butterflies…

Morale of the story
Life is wonderful if you take things positively. It can be unpredictable sometimes but don’t let some mishaps ruin all your dreams.

This is my real experience in life written in a metaphoric concept. The butterflies in the short story are the metaphor for my dreams and the long and big butterflies net is my right hand.

PS: Currently Zack is pursuing his dreams in a another kampung. With just a little experience, knowledge and wisdom in his stride, Zack left his kampung to pursue his dream somewhere else. Wish him luck =D

To be continue…..

Salam bloging utk blogers seantero… hehe lps menyepi utk sepurnama kini ak kembali dgn post tbaru. Bkn ape cume bln ni mcm2 benda dah jd dlm life aku… sibuk dgn aktvt2 ilmiah dan lebih byk lg yg berbtk bkn ilmiah =P

Bermule dgn kehadiran member2 dr UKM yg dtg ats sbb tugas n keje… mule2 member aku Paan dtg sbb company die ade bkk booth kat Expo Pldgn Pgkt Swk pd 25 Okt - 2 Nov yg lalu. Bbrp hr lepas tu muncul pulak Ejan yg lepak dgn ak selama seminggu utk mhadiri Simposium MSAB d kchg. Mcm bese la ak kene jd driver n tour guide utk member2 ak yg dtg ke bumi kenyalang…. Semestinya dlm tmph 3 mgg tu ak b’ulang-alik dr Unms-kuchg hmpr stp hr.  Kini blh dikatakan aku sdh mahir dgn selok-belok bndry Kuching (jika anda bminat utk mdptkn pkhidmatan tour guide dr saye jgn segan2 utk mhubungi sy =D)

Selain melayan sahabat-handai yg dtg, ak jg sibuk dgn kerja2 sbg ahli comitee Simposium MSAB. Sbb ak dipertanggungjwb dgn tugas2 teknikal maka ak perlu hadir lebih awal dan pulang lebih lewat bbanding ahli comitee yg lain. Km org technical crew jg perlu sentiasa ade di setiap event bg memastikan semua peralatan dpt digunakan dgn lancar. Wlpn sbk dgn tugas comitee tp ak smpt jg utk beramah-mesra dgn delegasi dr UKM, membaca poster2 yg dipamerkan dismpg memenangi acara cabutan bertuah (hahaha bangga gile jd wakil UNIMAS n UKM naik pentas =P)

Sekembalinya member2 aku ketanah asal dorang, ak masih lg sibuk…. Lps stop lab work ak selama seminggu ak kene bergegas utk kejar blk keje yg dah lame tertunde. Dan hsl yg menggalakkan membakar smgt ak utk bekerja lebih mase… sampai weekend pun OT.  Antara sbb lain jgk adlh demi mengejar tarikh progress report yg perlu dihantar akhir bulan ni. Dan di mlmnya mase terisi dgn aktvt sosial spt jamuan bbq ppisahan bdk2 aras aku, unoficial MSAB dinner ngan geng2 master dll aktvt bkn ilmiah. X lupe jgk ak kn mjd driver hrpn utk mhantar member2 undergrads yg ingin pg k airpot n stesen bas dsbbkn ak antr yg x blk.

Kesannye exercise routines ak sdkt tganggu… hasil kerja yg blambak dan makan pun turut blambak2 hohoho (tp still maintain la (^^,)…kesan lain network of friends ak trt btambah, hehe x lame lg blh sampai 500 lor. Hmm summarynye pengalaman mematangkan kite, dan itulah yg aku cari bile aku btekad utk smbg bljr di sini…. hopefully usaha aku x dipersia2kan

-Tribute wat teman2 lame dn baru kenal \(^o^)/