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Name : Suhaib @ G.U.S @ BonZeR
Codename : 004
Mission : Survive outside of d comfort zone of my home for 1 week (sound easy eh? but u try it with only 1 functional hand)
Place : Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia
1st in command : Dad
2nd in command : Mum
Task : 1. Deal with UKK 4 d Ta kaful claim
2. Meet Prof Ismail to discuss about my industrial traning
3. Made new matric card
4. Go to HUKM
5. Meet mystery person
6. Deal with UP 4 my occommodation next semester
Day 1 (19/3/06)
1250 - 1st n 2nd in command drop me off at UKM. After checking my room(setinggan d kolej A la ape lg) 4 this mission i went 2 meet my teamates
1305 - Arrrived at ukm soccer field. They just finished their ’sukaneka’ n i was just on time 4 d hamper opening ceremony. hehe who doesnt like free food. Oh yeah n d crowd go crazy when they see me, especialy d girls….feels like mawi la plk.
2030 - Went to see my mission operation center (biliik UPSM). Wow it really had 
changed….with new pc (now they have 4 back then only 2) n n ew round japanese table.
2300 - My batch mates give me a treat at d nearest Mapley….We eat, talk n laugh n laugh n more laughing….huii senak perut kawe dh lame x bantai gelak cam2….my friends can make a joke out of everything including my accident.
Day 2 (20/3/06)
0115 - Go back 2 my room n my stomach is killing me….. aiseyy gue ni dh alergik dgn mskn mapley k?
0240 - Went to SLeeeEEEEEeeeeepz
0630 - Wake up 4 my subuh prayer n after that wash my dirty cloth single handedley (i mean hand washed with only 1 hand)
0930 - Went 2 d operation center, hv breakfast, read newspaper, godek2 pc
1030 - Went 2 UKK 2 ask about d takaful claim procedure. N this what they told me : adik kena isi borang dan bawa dokumen ini, itu, itun, iton n byk lg le….when i told them im going 2 HUKM, they told me 2 get refer n gerenti letter from Pusat Kesihatan….Arggh!!! additional task
1330 - My friend finally gave back my matric card….She b using it so his boyfriend who looks like d ‘old’ me but not as handsome as d ‘current; me can enter UKM. So task number 3 is aborted
1530 - Went to PK 4 d new task. Akak at d counter told me i hv 2 see d doctor 4 d refer n gerenti letter (cehh ak dh naik muak tgk muka doktor). So i go n see d doctor n then he said i hv 2 see d PK Boss….argghhh whats up with all this bureaucracy - 1 of d things i hate about mlysia. because he is not in his office i hv 2 see him tommorow morning
2130 - A friend sent me to college B, d place im going to spend d nite (best gak setinggan ni blh lpk mn2 ak suka :P)
2200 - Meet all my friends over there n after that went 2 sleep
Day 3 (21/3/06)
0815 - Went 2 PK again 2 see PK taiko….
0845 - I was finally called into his office (Cehh just 2 see him i hv 2 wait for 30 minutes) When i told him why im there he then explain 2 me from A to Z on how d claming system in UKM works. N finally i cant even get a cent from UKM 4 my treatment this semester n he told me there is no previlage in HUKM 4 UKM students (name j HOSPITAL UKM) So task number 4 is also aborted
0930 - Went back 2 college B 2 get some shut eye, i went 2 sleep very late last night
1430 - Go 2 Prof Ismail room 2 see him but he is not there (Ceh call hp off, sms x lyn, dtg bilik ko xda plk) So i went 2 my last operation center (blk PMFST) Meet my friends there….quite d same like last semester. Hmm new faces in d organization
2130 - Went 2 blk UPSM borak2, belek pc, tgk tv (rncg realiti my team kat tv3 best gak)
2330 - Go back 2 my room in college A to sleep
Day 4 (22/3/06)
0915 - Call Prof Ismail….ahh its ringing…n he answered it!!! (its not easy 2 get ur call through or answered with ths guy) He said he will b in his room ths morning.
0930 - Arrive at his room. I introduce myself n told him i want 2 discuss about my LI(Lthn Indstr)He give me some suggestion either 2 do it next semester (mid april- june) or do it when i enter my 3rd year. He gave me d realty check tht i needed, that im not like before d accident n he urge me 2 find a work that use more of my brain instead of my hands
1030 - Went 2 UPSM room n gave a big thought about wht my lecture just said….arghh i must improve my pointer or i will never become a postgrad
1430 - Went 2 UP 2 ask about my occommodation next semester n im hoping i will b send into a college tht is near my faculty
1800 - After I finish my tea time meal with my girlfriends (kwn2 perempuan ye) we all went 2 Warta 2 do some shopping. My friends is going 2 held a birthday party tonight so we need 2 buy all d junkfood needed 2 made a succesful party. Wow… ths girls really know how 2 shop ha (beli itu, beli inilah…mamppuih la sapo jd laki korang muarghaha)
1830 - Still not done shopping so i silently slip away 2 buy d present 4 my friend who will turn 21 tht day n 4 d mystery person im going 2 meet d next day.
1900 - Finally they finish shopping n we all went back 2 UKM
2130 - Went to bilik UPSM 4 d bithday party. 2 my shock it was not held just 4 one person but all who was born in d month of February n March….thats include me =) So they all sang d birthday song 4 us n then we cut d birthday cake together. After we all ate…its time we all waited 4 except d birthday girl….OPEN TABLE time (its when d birthday boy/girl hv 2 answer wht ever question thrown at him/her)
2230 - Finally my turn came n d question is : Bayangkn jejaka yg anda minati berada dihadapan anda dan anda sedang btentang mata dgnny. Ap akn anda ktkn kpdny…x krg drpd 30 pth pkataan…HAR HAR im pretty bad eh? Ths is 1 reason why im glad im not there in UKM when i turn 21 back then in february. It may sound cruel 2 u guys but me n my UPSM friends r like a family n we shared everything.
0115 - Went back 2 my room 2 rest
Day 5 (23/3/06)
0900 - Went 2 see college A principal 2 ask him if i can stay in his territory next semester. Althought i hv told him about my current condition he still refuse 2 accept me with an excuse they hv selected d occupants 4 next semester n he felt guilty if he hv 2 reject 1 occupant just 2 let me in. Ceh then whts d use of giving me d simpty face
0935 - I hv 2 walk all d way 2 college U n I to ask if they can accept me next semester. N all d sweating is 4 nothing, both d principals were not in their office.
1030 - Lepaking at UPSM room, killing time b4 i go 2 midvalley 2 meet ths mystery person….Aduh i hv 2 go there all by myself bcause none of my friends is free tht day
1300 - Arghh its 1pm already n there is no one who can sent me 2 d commuter station….im sure going 2 be late.
1315 - D real owner of d room i been staying called me….he ask d key 2 his room, thank god! u r my saviour i told him n i ask him 2 sent me 2 d commuter station
1415 - I receive a sms from d mystery person asking if i hv arrive or not….Almk im still in d train,so tht person hv 2 wait another 20 minutes untill i arrive
1435 - I finally arrived at midvalley n went 2 d spot we promised 2 meet
1442 - I arrive 1st so i hv 2 wait
1447 - Suddenly a person ask me if im Suhaib…..So is this d mystery person i ask myself (ok ok i know u all must b tired with all d mystery person ni kan, actualy dia my old friend who i havent met 4 a long time n nameny Triple H…name btl?? aihh x mesteri la lg kl mcm 2 hehehe) We talked n then go 2 nearest fast food stall (my stomach is plaeding 4 me 2 feed it, i havent eat nothing but roti kosong)
1452 - Arrive at Mc D (budjet xda sem ni JPA x msk) after ordering we talked,talked n talked. Oh yeah i gave Triple H d unidentified item
1525 - Its been 3 years since d last time i came here. So i ask Triple H 2 show me around. We walk while we got 2 know each other, trying 2 catch back all d time we had lost.
1705 - Perghh ths place is huge n its asar already but we still havent see all of it. I think today is not d day i conquered midvalley. So we went 2 d nearest surau 2 pray. Aik ths place is so big but they can only built a surau tht can occomodate 5 people???
1730 - While busy chating with Triple H suddenly my hp start 2 ring (sapo ni kacau daun btl la) Almk!!! its my 1st commander, ni mesti nk laporan harian….Ape ak nk ckp ni….xpa2 rilek, trk nfs, ur cool man u can do ths i told myself. So with lafas bismillah i answered d call n here r d conversation….
Dad : Akum, mcm mn chat
Me : Walaikummusalam, alhamdulillah chat
Dad : Ap bsg2 tu, ni kt mn ni?
Me : (aisehh kantoii kawe…) Ha….errr….kt midvalley
Dad : HA! midvaley buat ap kt sane?
Me : Xda sj jln2
Dad : Dengan sape? Sorang je k?
Me : Ha?… ade la bbrp org ( im not lying, more then 1-including myself- is bbrpkn =P)
Dad : K jg diri elok2
Me : Ok bye…
enf of conversation
actually d call is normal n my dad used 2 call me everyday during my mission but ths time its a secret mission tht why im kinda of panicked….so back 2 my mission report
1805 - Its time 2 say goodbye 2 my old friend n i start my journey back 2 UKM.
1813 - D commuter arrive but it was packed with people…. So i have 2 stand 4 half of d journey untill their was an empty seat….Cehh they should reserved seats 4 people like me
1900 - Arrived at my room, after cleaning myself n magrib prayer i went 2 sleep
2230 - Went down d stairs 2 UPSM room, hang out a while over there b4 my friend sent me 2 college B where i spent d night there
Day 6 (24/3/06)
0834 - Went 2 see Dr Kadderi d principal of college B. We talk n he promise 2 take a good look at my application. That was good enough 4 me (insyaallah i get a place there)
0930 - Went 2 blk PMFST my apprentice wants 2 meet me. She want 2 ask about all d work i use 2 do….So we hv a good discussion n i gave her a few pointer (yg lain bljr sendr, lmk la ak nk ajr semua)
1007 - Went back 2 college 2 rest b4 solat jumaat
1315 - Solat Jumaat
1520 - A friend sent me 2 UPSM room. Seniors going 2 held a trial activity 4 us
1612 - D activity start. D mission 2 acomplish is 2 built a tower using pvc pipes n ropes.
1705 - Still cant get d tower 2 stand still, its just keep moving
1735 - Mission accomplish (whats d secret hehe u hv 2 try it 4 urself 1st)
1815 - Go 2 d volleyball court…..im not going 2 play, just watch my friends play….Aiyaa 1 more thing i cant do right now but wait when im fully heal, ’spike guna tgn kiri tu haha’….although i feel jelous see my friends play but it was fun watching them play not only with thier hands but also their mouth hehehe…
2226 - Went 2 UPSM room…lepaking
2337 - Went 2 mampley with d others. Eat roti canai while watching spiderman 2
0040 - Head back 2 my room 2 sleep
Day 7 (25/3/06)
1000 – Went ‘lepaking’ at UPSM room
1230 – Feel tired n sleepy so when back 2 my room 4 a quick nap
1500 – When back 2 UPSM room, d juniors already in d bus 2 go 2 HPA. Ceh there is no one who can sent me 2 HPA.
1530 – My friend Qoi came n i ride with him 2 HPA
1540 – Arive at HPA n d juniors hv just started 2 built their UPSM tower
1613 – D juniors 1st tried wasn’t tht successful…..their tower ws rejected because it does not fulfill d task given
1828 – Still haven’t get it right but their were pretty close until they tried 2 connect d last pvc pipe n it broke into pieces. So we gave them a break to perform d asar prayer
1932 – Finally they manage 2 built d UPSM tower according 2 our demands
2130 – Ceramah by Brother Bob
Day 8 (26/3/06)
0001 – We let d juniors sleep while we discuss who will take part in d next activity
0100 – We wake up d juniors 4 d awaited events (ths is d main activity to see if d juniors r fit 2 be called d new batch)
0217 – They still cant get d message we r trying 2 give 2 them
0329 – Finally they get d job done
0412 – Time 2 get some shut eye
0700 – Tying d knot among d new batch
0815 – Conclusion
0921 – Time 2 say goodbye 2 all my friends but b4 I left my batch mates perform all kind of LDK games 4 me. Although now I cant perform all of it but watching my friends do it is satisfying enough.
0933 – I left them 4 now but im sure I b coming back soon (insyaallah)
1307 – 1st n 2nd commander arrived from seremban 2 pick me up.
1327 – After finish packing I say goodbye 2 my roommate Pejal n I went back 2 my home
So that’s my report 4 my 1st mission impossible, u can say what ever u like : tht im making a big fuss about it or I just plain crazy……But 4 me it brings a whole new meaning 4 my new life….Now I know I still cant survive in UKM even though im in ths current condition…..now I know I will
always hv d support n backing from my fellow friends……So I like 2 take this opportunity 2 say my greatest thank you 2 all my friends who had helped me going from A to B(usually d mode of transportation is a motorcycle n sometimes without a helmet[x serik2 ak ni]- my mum will kill me if she know about ths), d people who gave me a treat, presents n d words of encouragement n motivation or simply just gave me a smile………THANK YOU……now im starting 2 understand d true meaning of ‘Gerak Bersama’ Aa! How can I 4get about my parent…without their blessing n money I wont be able 2 complete d mission at all
How was my performance u asked? Hmm I did finish all d task given 2 me….I guess u guys out there b d judge…..out of 5 stars how many star do I deserve….hehe this is a REALITY show u know….maybe im d next MAWI in d making…..So until my next mission…….WORLD!!!
It has been 3 months since my accident, and during that time i never felt so worthless and disappointed…..with myself. Just got home from d hospital n d doctor told me d thing that i never would want to hear…..that my right hand will never heal back like it used 2 be……SHITTT!!! Then i just should 4get about my passion 4 outdoor activities, basketball n cooking…..wait i still can cook but with twice d effort, energy n time it needed b4. Im at d lowest point of my emotion right now…..feel useless it like u r at d highest peak of ur life n this happen or ur leading a race n suddenly u fell down n become d last person in d race….im used 2 b very independent, im d type who doesnt like 2 ask 4 help….n now i cant even scratch some parts of my body…..DAMNIT!!! Why this is happening 2 me…….WHY ME??? Maybe is 1 way to repay 4 my bad deeds, yes i admit there is many mistakes i have done in d past that i wish it never happened…..i was pretty naughty back then, but i try 2 change…..at least i have tried……even though of taking my own life, but im not that stupid n im not going 2 die as a KAFIRRUN……
I remembered i once met this old indian lady in d hospital….we talked n she told me when i was in coma my spirit was knocking on heaven’s door n im on my way to depart from my body 4ever….but then suddenly God hear voices calling 4 me…..n she told me that were d prayers from my family…….n because God cannot stand all d noise, God sent my spirit back to my body and i was given a 2nd chance….although i dont belief what she said but she got a point there…….that i still have my family, who love me very much, who cares 4 me, who have hopes 4 me……n how could i 4get about my friends, who were very supportive n had given me all d encouragement i needed…..that doesnt include all my girlfriends….hehe just joking….So what d use of crying 4 d things u could not have or d things u lost…..just b gratefull 4 things u already have that maybe someone else doesnt have…..HEY!! i can still walk, not like im paralyze or something….i can still see this beautiful world ALLAH had created, i still can hear d birds chirping when i woke up in d morning….there are so many things 2 be thankful 4….it just u forgot about it or u just dont realize.
One thing is 4 sure, im d hard headed type that doesnt give up easly untill i get what i want……so u guys just wait n see im going 2 do things that normal people can do AND im going 2 do it better then them. Thats my promise 2 myself, 2 all who r reading this n to d WORLD!!!
Here is another song that is very related to me. Untitled by Simpe Plan. So this is to all my fans out there (especially d germs n bacteria in d toilet) this song is dedicated to u guys. I LOVE U ALL….WORLDDD!!!
I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight
And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
