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Name: Suhaib @ G.U.S @ BonZeR @ BOY @ Handsome (Really 1 of d staff there call me by that name)
Codename: 004
Mission: Industrial training for 8 weeks (Would U take an O.K.U as a trainee? Yeah I should have guessed d answer)
Place : Johore Specialist Hospital (d same place where I received my treatment after d accident)
1st in command: Prof Ismail
2nd in command: Puan Ruwaidah
Task: 1. Learn about theory n technical clinical microbiology
2. Get used 2 a microbiologist line of duty
3. Learn how a hospital lab work
4. Show 2 d world that I can still lead a normal life
5. Tackle 1 of d trainee nurses (OPTIONAL….muahahaha)
Week 6 (11/6/06 - 16/6/06)
Yeah, Yeah i know im wayy, wayyyyyy behind schedule…. but sometimes i wonder does anyone read my blog (some say it fulll of crap…yes sometimes i merepek a lot) but d intention i created this blog cause i want to share my experience, maybe u guys dont hv repeat d mistakes i hv done in life n take what is goood as an example….. so as a dedicated bloggers this week i pusblish 2 of my practical report… here it is, please do enjoy it.
This week is the most challenging week so far. My worst nightmare has finally come…. My supervisor hv started comparing me with my colleague. Its ok with me if she is comparing me with someone in the same state as me. But comparing me with a
NORMAL person! Is that fair??? ( Ek eleh, kecoh ar mamat ni. Kn dh 6 bln lps ko eksiden x kn x sembuh2 lagi? ) Some of u might think that way. Yes it hv hv been 6 month n my health hv improved tremendously. But I still cant bend n straighten my right hand fully plus my right hand wrist n elbow are also stiff. My daily work at d lab pretty much done manually n it all are hands on work. How about my left hand its still fully functional right u asked?…..Yup but just think about it, how much work can be done n how long will it take if I only used my left hand. N don’t forget im a right hander so my left hand is not flexible as my right hand used 2 be.
No matter how detail I try to explain…. Only an O.K.U like me can feel d physical n especially d mental n emotional pain I hv 2 endure. DAMN!!! Im so frustrated cause I know I can do better if ONLY d accident never happened. Kak Y is comparing our work at d safety cabinet section. Yes all this while my colleague had done it faster then me. I can give 2 reasons why : 1st she NORMAL n I…. well no matter how I hate 2 admitted it im now a HANDICAP. 2nd she got more exposure involving work on d safety cabinet section compared 2 me cause kak Y let her do all d work n she just observe from behind while on my case abg Lan only allowed me 2 do al d proceed work. Only just recently I got d chances 2 do all d work over there. N now they expect me 2 perform like my voleague? HELL! if only that is possible….. even worse d one who is evaluating our work is kak Y n she expect me to d all d work d way she wanted (u think I can read
ur mind eh kak y?) Abg Lan pn lbh kurang, perli2 gua. Gua tau la gua buat kerja x laju.
All this while I hv ben holding back. Im a lay back person, I like 2 do my work calmly n with a smile on my face [Not like my colleague,=( muke asyik mencuka je] To me practical training means it’s a time to learn, soooo take take
ur time. We aren’t paid 2 do all his work (we do get paid but not as much as d other lab staff) But if u want it that way, then I just hv 2 shift into a higher gear….. No more holding back 4 me n NO MORE MR NICE GUY. I show them that I maybe physically disable but mentally n emotionally im stronger. I beat her best time (
10.55 am I supposed) I try my best n that’s the last thing I do.
But in a positive way maybe my supervisors r doing this so ill give my fullest. So I can develop my true potential. Maybe they r training me so I get used 2 d hectic environment in a private hospital, where d customer pay us 2 get their result in d shortest time frame. I hv always love challenges n when god hv obstruct obstacle 4 me I will try 2 tackle It head on (it may sound a bit cocky 2 u guys but it always hv been that way n I produce unexpected result…. X percaya? Then go n ask my family, close friends, teachers n even my orthopedic doctor) N this time I also take it as one of d many challenges I hv 2 face during my journey as a humble God servant. I hope it can help me to improve myself in my mission to become a better person…..insyaallah.
Week 7 (18/6/06 - 23/6/06)
So this week I began my practical training with a determination to show my supervisors im capable of doing d lab work as sufficient as my colleague. N I hv set d goal 2 accomplish : finish all d work at d safety cabinet section b4
11am . Day1:
Mission failed I only can manag 2 finish it at 1230pm (Arghh apehal beza gile ni). Day 2: its not my turn 2 work at d safety cabinet, but Im timing my colleague performance (her time 4 that day is 1215pm but I want to beat her best time) Day 3:
Mission failed lagi. (Ciss… because I hv 2 get d green light from kak y b4 I can proceed my work after I hv examine all d bact culture so if kak y ask me 2 wait after I hv finish examine d culture, then d only thing I can do is wait…. But it is getting in my nerve cause how d hell can I beat her time if it continues to be like this GRRRRR…) Day 4 : Aku x lepak kt situ ler hari ni…. Day 5: just managed to finish b4 12 (Aiyaa bile gua nak buat cepat2 ade je sampel dtg mganggu…. I hv 2 culture d sample 1st b4 I can proceed with my work). Day 5: Even though its not my turn 2 work at d safety cabinet (I never got d chance 2 work over there on Friday cause kak y think I can finish all d work there b4 1230) But I insisted I want 2 do it even I hv 2 go home late cause I think this is my only chance. So I got what I wanted n that day I work with my fullest concentration, energy n determination….. I don’t care if my right hand will b aching afterward, I don’t give a damn if I wont b able 2 talk to anyone while I work that day(im a talkative person a good listener as well n both of my supervisor know who 2 turn to if they hv anything to talk about me or d lifeless trainee… I may sound cruel but it’s a fact, that girl if u asked anything she will try 2 reply it with only 1 word) N in d end…… I finished all my work exactly at
11.10am . Disappointed? Of course I am, cause I think I hv tried my best but in d end I still lose in my own mind built competition. But its not a fair n square competition…… d amount of bacteria culture we hv to proceed differ sometime she hv more n sometime mine was more. Sometime theres no sample need 2 be cultured n we can focused on just d bact culture processing n bact identification or on some days the sample just keep coming. So 2 say she better then me or Im worse then her is unfair in this current condition. But I admit shes a worthy opponent (in a good way I mean). But I think kak y got my message(that I am as capable as my colleague) n I hope she accept me just the way I am.
Ohh during this week also I met someone who hv d same passion as I do. That person is kak Oja one of d lab technician here in jsh. We both love outdoor activities (Mount climbing, explore d jungle n all kind of outdoor activities). Finally I can share my experience with an outdoor freak like me n she also got many incredible stories to tell. Compared to her im like an amateur (she hv climbed almost every mount in ths country including d highest mount in S. E. Asia n some of them numerous time) I really adored her cause at d age 30+ shes still going strong. She hv give me the inspiration to be active once again in outdoor activities. If she can do it then there is no reason why a healthy O.K.U like me can do it. YEARGHHH CAYIOKX3
MALAYSIA BOLEH, O.K.U PUN BOLEH!!!
